I can’t say I’m a dreamer.

I’m not like those who ask themselves relentless questions. Questions about ‘what if?’ and variations of that. Much like, ‘What if I had acted differently when I saw he had the habit of plucking at the curled hairs just behind his ear?’ or ‘What if he didn’t have that crooked smile that he seemed to keep just for me?’ or ‘What if I hadn’t been doing my usual five mile run that day?’ ‘Hadn’t had my umbrella with me?’ ‘He hadn’t come when the steady rain started?’

All I know is that his cold, shivering form feels too good against mine. That my work-out towel seems to fit on his head just right. That my umbrella is too small for the both of us. That I really don’t give a damn that my feet are getting soaked. That my butt is going numb from the cold concrete. That his breath travels through my track uniform and practically kisses my damp skin.

No, I am not a dreamer. I know what happened and I know what is happening. What could have been doesn’t concern me. And what concerns me is that, for the first time in my life, I wish the clouds would never break apart from their tight embrace, so that the sun would never peer its way around their silver corners.

For the sky is rain colored.

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Another time in which I wanted to finish the picture so I could write down my thoughts There is no story for these two, fyi. I find it is rather hard to draw my own characters. I've really done it only with my characters from my Goddess story (arc?) like Myria and Tranquil. Probably because their appearences are actually important (I tend to skimp out of direct descriptions unless they are relavent...so a lot of characters have no set look, just what the reader interprets)

I have found that I have a tasteful need to make things wet looking and muddy. *needs to draw more rain scenes* Major leaps in this picture? The FEET! I have never drawn shoes before and I nearly died.

I will always hate grass, no matter how hard I try to make it look good, it always ends up looking shopped. I also had difficulty with the color scheme. It took me forever to figure out how the give the red-head drab colors without him completely blending into the bg. I did my best.

*also hates hands* [link]

Also! Before I continue to ramble on about nothing...I am pretty sure this is the first bl pic I have ever done. Shocking, eh? Considering I have already done like three of Myria and Tranquil (and that doesn't count the dozens of useless sketches on my comp....their really bad, lol) I've tried doing it before, but either I turn one into a girl or it just looks too terrible. I think it has to do with the fact that it is just easier for me to draw girls.